As I type this Lincoln is cooing in his bed to my left and Sarah is sound asleep. I'm taking the chance before getting some sleep to reflect over the past few days. Now that the baby is born, I imagine that traffic will dwindle a bit and this blog will take look less like CNN with "breaking news" and more like my personal journal. So if you are reading this please know that the words here are freely available to you here but know that the spirit in which these words were penned is so that I don't soon forget the range of emotion and thoughts going through my head.
I'm amazed at life. Give me an evolutionist and 9 months and I'll make a creationist out of him/her. That is to say this all doesn't happen by chance. I won't get into all the details but you who have kids know how much the baby needs the mother and the nutrients she provides. What I find amazing is the automatic response to produce milk that the baby needs. How can one think we derived from pond-scum or other non-mammalian form when simply witnessing a nursing mother?
It passes so fast. It may seem We went from hours and hours of 1 cm dilatation to jumping from 5cm to 10 cm in about 30 minutes. Then from there there was an hour of pushing and he's out. After waiting and waiting, it came so fast.
I'm a curious person, about anything really. I'm sure at points people find me annoying but my curiosity draws me to ask questions. Going in I had no desire to be near "the business end of things". Not because I have a weak stomach or any reason, I just had no desire. When it came time though, I wanted to see, understand, and witness everything. I watched everything I could, including tonight, my son's circumcision. I tell ya, I'm glad I watched. With every contraction I saw Lincoln move closer to birth. I think I was able to be a much better coach and helper to Sarah knowing where things were at rather than just staying up by her head.
It's getting late and I suppose I should sleep a bit, however I'm enjoying the solitude and quiet and having some time with just Sarah, Lincoln, and my thoughts.
This blog contains the thoughts and discoveries of Tim Barcz, a technologist with a interests in computer programming technologies.